I hope you’re doing well in this current collective and cosmic energy we’re experiencing. I know the last 6 months (the Aries moon container, from the Aries new moon this March to the Aries full moon just a few days ago) were really pivotal for me.

I left my community and home in Sedona April 2 and have spent the last 6 months traveling with my little family through Mexico and Central America. I sat with jungle plant medicine in Peru. I separated and came back together with my husband. I have been born anew since all that transition and then healing from dengue fever, and hardly recognize the ME that existed 6 months ago.

Since my time in Peru, my periods haven’t been the same. My cycles are now much longer and my “spring and summer” phases of them are now extended. I feel I might be transitioning into the maga period of my life… after predictable reproductive cycles but before complete cessation of ovulation/menopause. Peri-menopause, in western terms.

The magic of my crone years may be starting to seep in slowly during this transitory phase. And who knows how long it’ll last or if I’ll take some steps back toward more “normal” cycles (for me), before heading back this direction at some point…

But for now I’ve really been enjoying the extended creativity of my extended follicular and ovulatory phases :)

I have felt a lot of energy channeling through me, and it’s been really special to be able to birth new creations and ideas and non-human babies into the world at this point.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve also been sinking SO deep into motherhood as well, but I’ve found a comfort zone within myself and a new routine and flow.. and less judgement of myself and the way I’ve been moving through each day..

My kids have gotten to a point where they love to play with and occupy each other and themselves more and more, so I’ve been spending quite a lot of time, actually, doing other things that bring me joy and pleasure.

I’ve finally gotten out of the “postpartum” phase of figuring out who I am now as a mother. And basically as soon as that point became super solid, I was able to dedicate more energy to other “babies” and creative projects. Phew! What a journey.

I am out of the internal chaos spiral of survival and into flow and thriving. Yay!

I’m sure I could have gotten to this point so much sooner than after almost 7 years of mothering, when my youngest is 2 and a half.. but I guess I didn’t have the tools to shift my mindset out of my old programs of meekness and self-martyring and self-victimization.. and completely step fully into deserving to feel good …

Let’s be real, motherhood is HARD in a really big way.. we don’t have community passing down knowledge over generations or supporting us, we’re not used to pushing through and really doing hard things to completion if we don’t want to, we often have traumatizing birth experiences, and I know there is a lot of suffering that we mothers go through because of all of this..

But I also feel we are collectively shifting some ancestral patterns of helplessness and dissatisfaction with this path of motherhood. We are the generation that gets to pivot and rewrite that narrative.

Anyway.. in case you’re interested.. (only sharing this because *I* LOVE reading or witnessing other people’s daily routines, (this is like a vanilla modern day voyeurism we have going on collectively atm I think..) so skip ahead if this sort of thing doesn’t do anything for ya!)

My new daily routine:

• Wake (before my toddler, OMG! I must be finally sleeping at night!) and spend some time in bed setting an intention and using breathwork to draw the energy I want to embody from the ether INTO my body..

• Drink SO MUCH water.

• Greet my children joyfully and give them lots of love as they wake. Talk with them about their dreams and what they might mean. This sets the tone for a connected and love-fest filled day, which is AWESOME.

• Make breakfast for my family and drink my daily coffee (AFTER eating) with intention.

• Drink more water.

• Work on new creative ideas and projects, which happen to also be abundance- and community-generating projects (which feels SO good). This time has been spent on my phone and computer, getting organized and creating digitally to launch these into the world we live in. My kids are 50/50 inside/outside during this time, playing with each other, hallelujah (the good thing about siblings..) or sometimes having a cuddle sesh on my lap while I work where they play.

• Have a creativity- and coffee-fueled chat/connection sesh with my husband. Lots of amazing new ideas birthed so far within this container. (Still, amidst kids running around and jabbering at us, but it works somehow.)

• Drink more water… seriously so much hydration is happening these days. Because I put it on my list of to-do’s lol. (Total virgo vibes)

• Move my body with my family. Walking or yoga or some outdoor simple movements like lunges and stairs and squats and planks while the kids play at the park.

• Lunch and more water.

• Put the toddler down for a nap

• Self-development time for meeeee :) Meditation and/or self-pleasure practice or drawing some tarot/oracle spreads or some other activity just for ME that brings in a lot of joy and happiness.

• Drinking more water

• Toddler wakes up and then I make dinner.

• Turn my phone and electronics off as I make dinner. The kids have been watching episodes of old school Mr Rogers’ Neighborhood while I cook and Taylor finishes work, which has eliminated a frenzied feeling of cooking while the kids “help” .. to be resumed when they’re older and my nervous system is more regulated. For now, I love cooking in peace!

• Eating

• Family connection evening time.

• Sleep by 10pm (I haven’t totally gotten this down yet, but 10pm is my goal. It happens more often when I don’t look at my phone all evening!)

The virgo in me has been THRIVING with this new structure outlined for myself in a note on my phone that I look at every morning to keep myself on track.

Also I think tbh humans are supposed to have some sort of rhythm that is the same every day, in order for our bodies to kind of “know” what to expect and what is going on. Or.. maybe that’s just how we’ve developed historically and that is changing now, but for ME.. I find I thrive with a routine. I’m also flexible as HAYLE when I need to be but ..

And I kind of sink into escapism and out of presence when I don’t have a routine or when, for some reason, I’ve stopped thinking I need one or I’m not in alignment with life or when I forget the tools to implement routine or think I don’t have enough of .. something.. in order for one to work.

This last 6 months of traveling has been a big pendulum swing of non-routine-experiencing to help me see how much I love some containment by structure.. but not too much. :)