The Journey of a Mother, Toward Her Passion

As a mom navigating the beautiful chaos of motherhood, I understand the desire to reignite the passion and sensuality in life and relationships.

It's a journey I've embarked on myself.

I found myself sitting staring out the window one day, remembering back to the days when life was fun pretty much all day, every day. I had no responsibilities, I had a lot of freedom, and I spent years being the only one in control of my day-to-day agenda.

I was spoiled back then :)

I love being a mother, I love being a wife, (now), and I have had to do some REALLY deep work in order to learn myself.. who I am…  in these new(er) roles, in order to re-establish my autonomy (or the newest iteration of it), and my passion in life…

In order to transition into enjoying blending my Self so deeply, with the needs, wants, desires of others in my family.

I had to learn by trial and error how to incorporate the best parts of my pre-kids, pre-partner self, BACK into the fold of motherhood and partnership.

Some part of myself thought those parts (the joy, the vibrance, the passion, the fun, the lightness, the hot sex, the ecstatic bliss of deep presence within motherhood and partnership) didn’t belong in my new role.

I had to renegotiate the amount of control that part of myself had over my day-to-day.

As I sat staring out that day, lost in my thoughts and my memories of past versions of myself, I had to decide to shift. I had to decide that there was no reason that love, passion, joy, excitement, joie de vivre, and contentment on a daily basis couldn’t be a part of my life.

I think there were equal amounts of surrender and determination to navigate a different path, in that moment.

I had to start pouring energy into the parts of me that steered my life toward passion, and start giving less energy to the parts of me that were stuck in that trauma-response mode.

I will be honest, motherhood and partnership has not always been easy for me.

I am someone who has always obsessively loved my kids, but crumpled under the demands of mothering them, until a couple years ago.

Motherhood really sent me into a dark place, initially.

Specifically, learning how to be a mother after my first child was born, was my first big dark time..

… and then becoming pregnant with my third child just as my second child entered into one of the most taxing “terrible-twos” phases I have ever witnessed. (Also the self-inflicted mom guilt for possibly causing my second child to feel so intensely about not being the baby for as long as he probably wanted to, and THAT contributing to his 2.5-year-long “terrible twos” phase..)…

And then continuing to navigate the huge-feeling expressions of my second while navigating new motherhood with my third once HE was born.

I feel that part of my Self went away, during all of this… like I was in a trauma k-hole, disassociated.. too stressed and disembodied to desire anything… friendship, depth in my partnership, sex, joy in life..

In the abrupt and extended shift into motherhood, the busy-ness of parenting, working, home-keeping, space-hoding, survival…  it was easy to lose touch with my own desires and needs amidst the demands of family and work.

There was almost a lack of worthiness I felt, to experience that joy and bliss, in hindsight.

If I had felt worthy, I would have made it happen sooner and would not have let myself suffer as long, or at all.

I had to build myself back into my worthiness. Into the fact that I, too, deserved to feel myself IN my body, connected to my senses, which connect me to my bliss, pleasure, creativity.

I had to tap back into something deep inside myself that knew how to make it happen.

(I also utilized the help of some of the most profound teachers and guides to help me heal myself in ways that were conducive to me reconnecting to my passion in life! Thank you James Pask, Donna Maria Camps, Layla Martin, Ayahuasca!)

Once I had the ability to regulate my nervous system enough to go deep within, I was able to reacquaint myself with that spark that was there the whole time, waiting to be fanned into flames of passion and vitality once again.

I know how important this is in this world, because I have seen how profoundly this has shifted my life, has spread from myself, to my kids, my relationship with my husband, and my ability to hold space for others going through the depths in THEIR motherhood/relationship journeys.

I am so honored to be able to help other women like me, who feel disconnected from their joy, pleasure, sensuality, and power. It’s some of the most important work in the world — helping mothers — in my opinion.

If you’re feeling the desire to shift in these ways..

to guide yourself into your true essence…

to reconnect with your passion and your sensual self…

to build your life force to the point that it has no choice but to spill over, overflowing your cup, and dousing your life with joy, pleasure, bliss, and aliveness…

and you’re not sure where to begin, reach out! I’d love to chat to learn where you are, and where you want to be :)

And then if you DO invite me into your healing  with you, through somatic embodiment we'll embark on a journey of self-discovery and transformation.

Together, we'll explore the depths of your being, uncovering layers of authenticity and sensuality that have been waiting to be unleashed.

I invite you to take a step toward reclaiming your passion and vitality. Let's embark on this journey together and ignite the spark that lies within YOU.

You can get in touch with me by responding to this email or booking your free 1 hour intro call to chat about all the details using the “book now” link below.

In Gratitude & Service,

Ashley